dhanurasana

Recently I had a great postpartum spontaneous yoga flow in my studio, I mean kitchen. In this beautiful space I thought I might like to catalog my practice or inspirations on my blog, since I am not currently teaching anywhere at the moment.

One thing my 10 years as a bodyworker has taught me is that collective consciousness and experience(s), are a real deal. The proof for me has manifested in cyclical affects on mind-body energetic flow due to the season or cosmic forces.

Just think to yourself of the countless ways a lack, or an abundance of sun changes your mental or physical state of being. Provided, you live somewhere with seasons of course.

My intention is to share poses that support earth rhythms in alignment with my northwestern hemisphere region of life. This is my self study, writing furthers my understanding, and yet maybe it’ll help someone else in the long run. : )

My posts that begin with a yoga pose or practice in Sanskrit will more than likely be a part of this cataloging. I’ll also tag the posts asana. To save time, I am not going to go into detail as to how these yoga poses (asana) effect mind-body energy. Perhaps in other dedicated posts. But let the practice, and experience be the teacher moreso.

The current rhythm, in my corner of the world, is a returning of light/sun energy and richness of life from the earth in Spring.

Our bodies are receiving a greater potential to synergize our personal power/truth within Earth energies to make our deeper powers manifest.

These energies present through the expansive energies of our core (solar plexus) seeking connection downward, to the depth of our roots/Selves (hips, legs and feet) and beyond… to the nexus of Self and other, and Self and the Mother Earth.

These connections and relationships, can be observed and experienced by witnessing life and experience for what it IS in any moment, authentically sharing oneself plus an ability to be present for all cycles of the regeneration process.

Living, pure potential.

Here is an astrological forecast, and perspective of the current cosmic influences.Cosmic foo-foo. 😉

This was my practice this morning. The asana is not exact, to save time. But I’m posting the general and most relevant poses.

BEgin:
Sit comfortably and tall, breathe.

Chanting:
Om
Om Ma Durga
Ah, Om, Hung, Ram, Dzha (Tibetan Seed Syllables)

Asana:
Child’s pose (CP)
Prana flow/ Spinal “wave” free-flow (Moving through or similar to cat cow with a lot of personal interpretation.)
Cobra
CP
Down dog, dolphin
Plank on forearms
Dolphin
“Dolphin Dives” like little push-ups in Dolphin. In preparation for headstand, or for me the kramas (steps) to headstand.
CP
dhanurasana pose directions via YJ
rest, repeat 2 times
Dolphin
Plank on forearms
Dolphin
Dolphin Dives
Cobra
CP
Down dog
Mountain
Warrior 2, triangle
Repeat other side
Bridge (mini aka shoulders down)
rest, repeat 2 times
shavasana w mantra:
“I am forgiving. I am forgiven” spoken once.
shavasana meditation/release/ receptivity

Chant:
Om namah shivaya gurave
satchidananda murtaye
nishprapanchaya shantaya
niralambaya tejase
(I honor the essence of being, the auspicious one, the luminous teacher within and without, who assumes the forms of truth, consciousness, and bliss, is never absent, full of peace, ultimately free and sparkles with a divine luster.)

The result:
Heart open and cleansed. A stronger core. A present mind with deeper insight and determination, yet the added bonus of flexibility. Thank you union of self, heart and mind!

Here’s a photo of me that I took in my studio-kitchen inspired by the #fmsphotoaday challenge. Today’s theme is Shapes, which made me think of asana shapes! I was in triangle, trikonasana.
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Om Ma Durga Om

Appreciating Durga today.

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The divine goddess of love and motherhood. She loves so fiercely that within her being is every “weapon” that spiritual warriors could posses. Her presence radiates beauty, confidence, acceptance, and strength… she has the loving awareness to witness all “evil, darkness, ego” gone astray with such divine power that the “evil, darkness, ego” wishes be released from itself. It simply offers itself to her to die under the swiftness of her sword.

At least, this is the way I understand her, taught to me by Dr. Manoj Chalam.

Karmic reweaving of mother/child-hood has been thick, in my sleeping and waking dreams the last few days. In this I experience prophetic dreams, symbolic messages, vibrational detoxes, and toddler-triggers galore!

Yesterday, my sweet toddler was pushing every button I had. I saw and felt my reactions and equally rose above said triggers and unconsciously reacted to them. When I reacted, I immediately felt what I was doing to my child, and to myself, by being angry. I communicated as best I could to him that I was reacting poorly and that I was sorry for my lack of patience.

In fleeting moments of silence, or in split seconds of post-trigger awareness, I would quickly pray. “Dear God, Great Spirit, please forgive me and guide me to be a better mother.”

I knew better than to believe I was a shitty parent and horrible mother. Sure, I felt that way, but I knew better than to let my heart attach itself to the sticky entrapment of misery presenting itself to me. Yet it took an unwavering commitment to say NO to it, every time.

Before going to sleep I was following through with a few logistical texts with our baby’s nanny, and friend in the spirit tribe in Boise. I let her know I was going to bed, and thus I did not see her replies until morning. Her last text to me, wished that I be filled with white light. Which she’d never said via text before.

It was sweet to read upon waking, as she didn’t know of the internal struggle I was challenged with and it was also supportive of the guidance that came to my dreams that night:

I was in a large stadium with people I knew and didn’t know. I found my 4 year old son there and he informed me that he was like his Dad and he has coyote medicine within him. Coyote is a shape shifter, and also a bit of a PLAYful instigator I believe. This gave me an “ah-ha” within my being and helped me understand why he is the way he is. Read: why I get triggered the way I do. 😉

I then was given an assignment to teach yoga in the stadium and I knew it had to be a heart-centric practice so that people could feel the loving acceptance I was feeling after my “ah-ha.” I was walking to where I would be teaching and I had an invisible presence next to me whispering that I create a perfect mantra for this experience. The presence felt masculine, and fatherly. He was helping me with my mantra as I would hope to help my son learn: patiently. As we walked the conversation went like this:

What would be best to start the mantra with?

….Om. Yes Om, the sound of creation.

Yes. That is good. And what shall follow it? What makes YOU feel loved?

Durga! Yes Durga should follow Om!

(Silent presence, knowing there’s a better answer.)

Oh wait, Ma! Ma Durga!

Very well! And let it finish with Om too. 🙂

Om Ma Durga Om!

I felt love and loved, and full of joy! The feeling increased every time I repeated it and I also felt so happy to have created just the right mantra to use in the waking dream to give me power on my path. I awoke shortly after.

I have a feeling that it was either one of my most relied upon teachers Babaji, or very likely Maharaj-ji visiting me in my dreams. I have been reading Maharaj-ji influences a lot lately through Ram Dass’ book Be Love Now for a book club I recently put in motion.

Shadow work, ie Karmic reweaving, is powerful when you arm yourself with awareness. I am thankful for the love of Durga and that of the True Christ that resides in my heart. I am thankful that my soul is armed in the soft, white feathers of owl and can wisely navigate within darkness. I am happy to have love in my home plus circles upon circles of divine beauty and embodiment in friendships in my city.

We should all be so lucky.

Summer Lovin

is what I do.

I love all the time.
I love my, eh-hem… job?, all of the time.
I love reiki-massage, and my thirst for life.

I love touching a person gently and not knowing, or caring to discern “why” (relatively).
I love giving a person source-energy and talking with them about life and love.
I love when people tell me that they feel safe with me and no one else.

I love when people fall asleep and wake themselves up from auditory-confirmations of their said relaxed state.
I love when it becomes electric-lightning and suddenly jolts their body into a new consciousness!
I love when a gentle moment is heard in a soft exhalation.
I love my tingsha bells.
I love the vibration of purity and the song it makes in between.
I love your anger and your tears.
I love my own.
I love Palo Santo.

I love the quiet comfort of the northend home in which I practice.
I love the people on foot and bikes outside, and even my occasionally noisy neighbor when he randomly shouts out “belly button,” and I realize its truly a message from above… or beside.

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I love placing stones on you.
I love that you bring your own and I have mine.
I love that we share.
I love that I see you not only here, but there.
I love that this is ours, our city, our experience, our friendship, our Earth-ship!!
Yes! I do love getting carried away in flow…
Oh Boise,
I love our river.

The water, the earth-mother, she blesses us and takes us back into her every time we gently lay our feet near her bed. When we rest our head, near her current, trusting her presence, breathing our blessings.

Thank you great mOther.
In Oneness, we share her.

Om~~*

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Let us meet at our river beds, make art, share love, dance, praise, swim, and sing of our heart’s greatest dreams! Jai!

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Sporgasm!

I do believe I have had my first official, yet definitely not last, Sporgasm!! Don’t feel left out. You can have sporgasms too. Read on…

I found myself following dreams that I either wished for, or was served, and through the process I became a Sporganizer for Evolver Boise. Sporganizer?? Sporgasms?? Evolver Boise?? What is all of this talk about!?

First let me explain a little about Evolver Boise. Evolver.net is a portal into the living creation of spores through out the world. Spores are born in cities to bring people together and communicate face-to-face and see what dreams can be born. Evolver Boise is my hometown’s very own Spore, or organism to create life and change in our city within the flexible-framework of Evolver.net and RealitySandwich.com.

Spores have sprouted up all around the world in cities to bring people together with vision and drive to change the world, realizing that its “Our world to change.” You can create a profile on Evolver.net and explore the writings and contribution of a world full of enthusiastic, accomplished writiters, dreamers, scientists, poets, and the like. From there, check out the Evolver Groups for your city and find your local spore, or join one of the myriad of dynamic, engaging groups topics and dive in!

Evolver.net was born out of the community that was so richly rising from the depths of RealitySandwich.com in its early inception. Y’know… it was only inevitable that all those weirdos and psychedelic freaks that ate up the content on Reality Sandwich would want to get together not only online but IN REAL LIFE to create change in joyous manifestation. Yippeeeee!!! 😀

To bring it off of the internet, every month spores all across the world come together exploring concepts and new designs on life, with the intention to inspire and create change within individuals and the community through communication, action, and enjoyment. Every spore creates something unique. It is an organic creation built upon the people who participate. This means YOU! There aren’t motives from the Sporganizers or even Evolver.net to create specific action items, other than joy, health, and liberation. What ever comes to be in the process, is up to all of us.

Evolver Boise came to be thanks to the one and only Marisa Smith Weppner. I thank the heavens that her dear husband Bill swept her off her feet and transplanted her here in Boise. Boise is indebted to Marisa, in my opinion, for her passions and manifestations in the realms of yoga, health, indigenous philosophy, psychology, and music! She is co-owner and founder of Sage Yoga and Wellness and not only gave birth to the Evolver Boise Spore, but also to Evolver Seattle while living there, and is a DJ on 89.9 KRBX Radio Boise’s Toast and Jam every Thursday morning at 9 am!

I met Marisa through yoga and sacred music (kirtan) and again through my son’s father who went to school with her husband. She became an instant friend of our family and even gave my son her vintage (1977) Darth Vader T-shirt for his first birthday. She wore it in high-school as a skinny raver-girl and it of course fit my sumo-sized one year old right away!

It wasn’t long after that I was sharing my ideas of throwing large dance parties to raise awareness for certain causes with her and was inspired to become a sporganizer after viewing Daniel Pinchbeck’s film 2012: A Time for Change in December of 2010. Yet life was thriving and I needed to tend to myself as a newly single mama and Marisa became pregnant with her second child. I was blessed to be there while her son was born, as her doula, and I feel blessed to be with her as Evolver Boise is reborn as well.

This April kicked off Evolver Boise’s return as we screened the documentary film Wake Up. The film follows Jonas Elrod and the path of his unexpected, transformative, and spiritual awakening as he tries to make sense of his life and the world as he integrates the spirit world and material world. It is very poignant of the evolutionary shifts many are finding themselves wrapped up in today. One that speaks of a spiritual thirst, a quest to know oneself, and to find deeper meaning within the world. The event was a great success! We had a wonderful turn out and we all really enjoyed the film and Skyping with Jonas after.

Our spore for May was spectacular weekend of events! We were so blessed to have one of the founders of Reality Sandwich and Evolver to visit our beautiful city. Jonathan Talat Phillips came to Boise to shine light on the Evolver movement, Spiritual Warrior Bio-Energetic healing, and his recently published work, The Electric Jesus. The Healing Journey of a Contemporary Gnostic.

I was particularly ecstatic from the magic that brought him to Boise. Two weeks before I learned of his book, I had prayed for guidance to teachers and writers who could help me further understand and explore my own healing experiences and awakenings to the deeper meaning of Christ consciousness. It had been a climatic year of visions through my healing work and for those that I provide to others in 2011. I prayed that 2012 would connect me to others that might help me make sense of these visions and allow me to take steps forward and to share it appropriately, in order to help other people.

In addition to finding his book, a couple months later I was on the phone with Marisa and Talat, scheduling his time in Boise. What magic!! This one prayer gave birth to so much more. This is the nature of Evolver and sporgasms! I am so pleased to be a part of Evolver and love that the magic will always continue!

My latest sporgasm comes from the adventure that I am about to take as I journey to Desert Rocks Festival in Green River, UT and represent Evolver Boise while I meet and learn from greats like Grandmother Flordemayo, Daniel Pinchbeck, Mitch Schultz, more from Johnathan Talat Phillips, and so many more! It will be my first festival pilgrimage without my son in three years. I will miss him, but I will seize this opportunity and look forward to what the open road of adventure and creation will bring.

Evolver Jai!
Evolver Boise Jai!

Evolution Jai!!!

Learning to Follow

A shameless post of love and gratitude for my son Lucas.

Lucas leading the way at 18 months old.

Parenthood is far less about teaching than it is about learning most of the time. Which truly is such a blessing. Granted, I think that statement applies to those parents that are choosing to “rewrite their story.” Which essentially means, paying attention and working your ass off at breaking through your ancestral and personal mental/physical/spiritual “boundaries” to avoid imposing them on your child, as best as you can. Which I do think all parents are concerned with. Its the nature of parenthood.

Last winter I wrote about my desire to organize and declutter my life in hopes of never leaving that sort of burden on my child like I unfortunately inherited by the time I was 26 and again at 33. (That post here: Self-organization) I had completely forgotten about that post, but as we entered into the Winter Solstice and I again contemplated what I would like to manifest for the upcoming year, I revisted it and was amazed by how much more I have cleared in past last year than I even knew I had to clear.

My relationship with Lucas’ father ending, plus moving out of my Union St house, and learning how to say no to “obligations” has allowed me to clear and cleanse so much. Trust me, I didn’t want to face all of these opportunities in disguise over the last year. It has easily been one of the hardest years of my life, if not *the* hardest. Lucas has been the buffer that has brought me so much Love and Joy that it made it easy to see what I was doing it all for anyway. It makes me feel like I wouldn’t have been able to do any of it without him. Which leads me back to “Following.”

Thank you Lucasuarus Aurora Borealis for coming into my world!!

omg. #Love!!

Even now, when I want life to hand me the easy path (eh-hem… Which btw Universe a lil’ easy path wouldn’t be so bad now and then if you know what I mean.) it doesn’t take me long to remember why I am being asked to do it.

If children are a burden, the burden they give us is exposing the light of our own illusions and ego. According to some, they are seen as Spirit coming through to test us and our ability to love and care for another outside of our needs and desires. I am so very thankful for the anchor that he has given to my physical existence. I can not bullshit myself any longer.

Its not like I didn’t already know these things as well. But he holds me accountable, or rather, my love for him holds myself accountable. I would never want to limit his potential, his confidence, his exposure to life and adventure because I didn’t do all that I could to push those boundaries in myself.

As this year comes to a close, I have been enjoying burning what seems to be the final stages of clearing my past from my Mother’s family in my woodstove. Its pretty awesome and liberating experience; heating your house with flames of burdens being carried away in smoke and ashes. Every time I burn through it, my living room and heart-space literally feel lighter and larger.

I have taken the time to set some intentions for the upcoming year and primarily it is to not lose site of my son being my guiding Light. Its an interesting dance now that I have a “single” life outside of having Lucas around 100% of the time. Yes, I do want a fantasmical romance and I’m positive I will have one someday. I tend to be a dreamy-eyed romantic and get lost in it, which I’m sure I’ll do to some degree but I really want to maintain harmony in my life. I want to dream and live big and keep my precious lil’ feet on the ground with my focus on the Lucas-prize to ensure my actions continue to follow our best intentions.

May we all live our heart’s biggest dreams!

Jai!