“the breath inside the breath.”

“God is the breath inside of the breath.” This symbolizes the importance of having sthira and sukha in our breath and lives. Strength and firmness alongside grace and ease. When the breath is steady and easy, we are probably doing pretty well at aligning ourselves with spirt and finding union (yoga.)

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During this special time of year as we enter into winter’s darkness and light continues to slip away until the solstice, we can easily stoke our fires with community, and even better by community in action together. Of course, another name for that would be yoga! Or life in union & action. [disclaimer: of course a yogi would note that action can also be inaction.] ; )

I was re-inspried by the word commUnity lately. By the acts of my friends, family and our collective works to occupying the world from the place of our hearts. COMMerce + UNITY = COMMUNITY! Together alone is the way to becoming 100% occupied. In unity we create so much more, by showing up and giving something we have. I am amazed by the generosity of friends this holiday season as they have been donating much needed items to me and Bubs to keep us warm and happy this winter. Thank you friends that have been doing that for me. I love you all infinitelyyyyyyy!

I’ve received many blessings in the past week that I wouldn’t have imagined months ago and my heart has been breaking open with gratitude! In the darkness that I am finding myself in this season, a sweet pure energy flows up and through from an abundant source and it inspires me to share that flame with you.

For starters I’d like to join in breath and then slowly explore space with our bodies to d a n c e in y/our breath and bones with me and our good friends, sthira & sukha in yoga asana practice… or on the dance floor. I plan on visiting them both as much as possible this winter.

I have been enjoying some new yogic inspiration that is begging me to play a little in my practice. I’ve been plotting and playing in asana for my yoga classes. Which just so happens to bring about a lot of dancing around with Bubs in our living room too. : ) They’re super good times!

Come join if you can and if not, I will see your shine there instead. Namaste~*!

Yoga: Next Monday only at 10 am at Sage Yoga & Wellness & every Wednesday at 9:30 at Body Renew on Vista!



Sunday Faith

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My post yesterday is making me laugh and feel a bit sheepish today. Its so funny how one day some things in our life can seem so large and the next, its no big deal.

Granted, yesterday was a parenting day from hell for me so I was prone to forgetting the magic of it all. Nothing, I repeat n o t h i n g went smoothly. An afternoon was wasted away all for the sake of an hour nap. I learned a big lesson. Which was, never let my son’s request for “night-night” an hour and a half earlier than his usual nap-time sway my schedule of events or just the thing I was hoping to prevent, a public meltdown, will be sure to happen. That was just one thing that taught me some parenting lessons.

Anyway, I am thankful for my post yesterday as it must’ve helped me clear some energies and open my cup back up to the present moment. I woke up feeling fully vital and grateful from the get-go today. Knowing that I have a Mommy-break (if there is such a thing) for the next three days definitely gave me some mental relief and an ability to find my center.

I just felt a deep sense of love and gratitude for myself straight away this morning. I am thankful for so much in my life. I am so blessed. I have a few amazing friends that I can count on and I love how when I see them or hear from them it feels like the perfect romance. There’s no need for me to *want* for anything. I already *have* everything. Ok, this is not entirely true. But I have so much already that brings me so much contentment and joy. Thank you Universe!

Its especially nice when seeing them coincides with decadent self-care like it did today while I got a pedicure from my dear friend of almost 20 years Brandi G. Lam aka Idaho’s Green Manicurist. Go see her if you haven’t yet!! She’s fabulous! www.brandiglam.com My feet are on display on her website, it makes me feel proud. : )

On my way home from seeing her one of my favorite songs, seriously one of the best songs ever made, came on in my car. It is the perfect song to remember in those moments when I feel a bit stuck and frozen in my sea of possibilities. So after my Flaming Lips playlist, I’ll put it on next as it is the icing on top!

If I were to have a theme song of all time, it would be this. And yes, you can play it at the pagan love-fest-dance-party of a “funeral” that someone puts together for me one day after I croak. Its *that* good and close to my heart. In fact, it was the first song I ever played to Lucas when he was in my belly via my headphones. Its the first song he ever heard! How rad is that?

I ❤ Thom Yorke and I ❤ Modeselektor.
Win. Win.

Happy Sunday!



Its been on my mind lately.
As has yoga.

I am so very excited, and a wee bit nervous in a great way, to make my triumphant return to teaching yoga! This Sunday at Sage Yoga and Wellness I will be teaching their FREE Karma Yoga class from 10-11am.

Sunday we will explore the concepts of liberation in our bodies and in our yoga practice. It’ll be fun as we explore ideas like impermanence, prana, movement, liberation, creation, and JOY! All in the beautiful space of Sage Yoga Studio, above Bittercreek & Red Feather on 8th Street in downtown Boise.


Teaching yoga fell into my lap and it took me a little while to become comfortable with it. It still causes me a healthy amount of stress when considering classes, but this is a seed of my inspiration and it helps me examine the world around me, and my place in it from a yogic standpoint. Which is easily one of my favorite parts of teaching yoga. It keeps me grounded, holds me accountable, and it gives me boundless potential to observe and chose the lens from which I see the world.

Yogis do hold deep wisdoms and have gained insights through deep meditation and lifetimes of asana. But I am here to tell you that if you just start by paying attention and observing everything in your life through the eyes of a reverent artist, you too will be well on your way to becoming a yogi in my book!

But lets not forget the asanas, aka yoga poses… they have a beautiful way of expanding our reverent-artist-lens repertoire. So join me Sunday as we explore yoga together! I am very happy to take a small break in my role as student, to shift my mat to the front of the room and hold space, set intention, and maintain focus for us as we embark upon a wondrous yogic adventure together.



Heidi Jae has instructed yoga for Boise State University’s Recreation Center for 3 years, has studied yoga through YogaFit, and is currently enrolled in the Shanti Yoga school 200RYT program.


Happens when we let go.

Little inconveniences in life, that usually mean a change in our “plan,” can turn into deep, wondrous, amazing things when we give up, jump in, and let go!

Fortunately these things don’t always mean a major life event, making us feel like we’ve hit our breaking point and forcing us to give-in. They can be as insignificant as misplacing our keys.

Every day is magic.

When life hands you a new idea, do you stop to look, listen and wonder what waits in store?

Burning Man has taught me a few things about liberation and freedom. One thing in particular is that nothing ever works out the way that you think it will or should. However, if you trust that whatever you want or wish for will surface, you can enjoy the experience and marvel at the seemingly magical and spontaneous gift from the Universe… that *you* in fact created.

Every day is magic.
…Do you see it?

Jai. Trust!


Moments when I feel my heart expand past the space that is my body, to envelope the entire scene; natural beauty, an emotion, the vitality of the now! Ahhh! Splendor! I have yet to proclaim that i’m a tantric yogini, but I do believe that is where my path is aligning me.

This morning, after a delightful breakfast of organic eggs, spinach, and Mike’s Killer Bread (Powerseed) with the Papa Bear and wee sprout, Lucas and I danced to Digable Planet’s “Cool Like That” around the living room. He is a dancer now. Bouncing his head and bobbing his knees… or maybe its vice versa either way, its pure joy.

This morning though, I held him as I couldn’t help but feel the stand-up bass erect my spine and vibrate every membrane containing my cells and structure while beckoning me to dance. That is always how it happens for me. I have never quite understood how some people need to be intoxicated to dance. I can’t help but dance when the rhythm calls. Its the best form of mental “sickness” a person could ask for. While dancing with him today, I was embracing and holding our joy, loving our laughter, squealing with sublimity!

In loving music, loving dance, and adding another layer to that mix; the proverbial frosting to the cake: Loving your child- the infinite manifestation and gift of love, and adding them all together… I could not ask for a better, yet more simple gift towards enlightenment. These are the moments in which I find my yoga, my union, to the divine in me, and beyond- in everything.

This post might be slightly cheesy, slightly cliché, but that is the mothereffin beauty. Lets be childlike with laughter at our egos and personas. Whether or not we realize our own humility, we are not the creators of magnificent. If we are so lucky, we experience the magnificence of our creator in our creative expressions. Be it an awakened act of gratitude through personal expression… hopefully. Shit, that is definitely not where I wanted to go with this, but I like it so I’ll leave it in for now.

Let me end in saying, this moment, happened an hour ago and my heart is still outside of myself. Loving everything this moment is affording. Thank you dear ones, everyone in all of time’s expansion, that afforded that moment, and this [and this and this and this…] to be!

Om Shanti Namaste. Jai!