Continue~Yin

Keeping in tune
with yin,
with in.

Outward movement, y observation.
My babies, mi niño, y mijo.

Greater trochanter,
ego, child…
release
receive.

Es segura niña.
Birthing unfamiliar.

Mi familia
en inglés
amando por Armando.

Heart-mind opens
pink into kind-hearted,
supple red.

Tears of sunshine kisses.
Rubbing the white feathers out of my eyes I am feed. I can see!

No big fucKINGQUEEN deal.
Nada del otro mundo.

Same, Same.

Releasing, releasing.
This moment gloriously shows itself.

A story in one hand, opportunity in the breath, perspective in the mind, and one hand on the heart.

Abhaya.

I breathe.
practice complete.

To be continueYin’d.

dhanurasana

Recently I had a great postpartum spontaneous yoga flow in my studio, I mean kitchen. In this beautiful space I thought I might like to catalog my practice or inspirations on my blog, since I am not currently teaching anywhere at the moment.

One thing my 10 years as a bodyworker has taught me is that collective consciousness and experience(s), are a real deal. The proof for me has manifested in cyclical affects on mind-body energetic flow due to the season or cosmic forces.

Just think to yourself of the countless ways a lack, or an abundance of sun changes your mental or physical state of being. Provided, you live somewhere with seasons of course.

My intention is to share poses that support earth rhythms in alignment with my northwestern hemisphere region of life. This is my self study, writing furthers my understanding, and yet maybe it’ll help someone else in the long run. : )

My posts that begin with a yoga pose or practice in Sanskrit will more than likely be a part of this cataloging. I’ll also tag the posts asana. To save time, I am not going to go into detail as to how these yoga poses (asana) effect mind-body energy. Perhaps in other dedicated posts. But let the practice, and experience be the teacher moreso.

The current rhythm, in my corner of the world, is a returning of light/sun energy and richness of life from the earth in Spring.

Our bodies are receiving a greater potential to synergize our personal power/truth within Earth energies to make our deeper powers manifest.

These energies present through the expansive energies of our core (solar plexus) seeking connection downward, to the depth of our roots/Selves (hips, legs and feet) and beyond… to the nexus of Self and other, and Self and the Mother Earth.

These connections and relationships, can be observed and experienced by witnessing life and experience for what it IS in any moment, authentically sharing oneself plus an ability to be present for all cycles of the regeneration process.

Living, pure potential.

Here is an astrological forecast, and perspective of the current cosmic influences.Cosmic foo-foo. 😉

This was my practice this morning. The asana is not exact, to save time. But I’m posting the general and most relevant poses.

BEgin:
Sit comfortably and tall, breathe.

Chanting:
Om
Om Ma Durga
Ah, Om, Hung, Ram, Dzha (Tibetan Seed Syllables)

Asana:
Child’s pose (CP)
Prana flow/ Spinal “wave” free-flow (Moving through or similar to cat cow with a lot of personal interpretation.)
Cobra
CP
Down dog, dolphin
Plank on forearms
Dolphin
“Dolphin Dives” like little push-ups in Dolphin. In preparation for headstand, or for me the kramas (steps) to headstand.
CP
dhanurasana pose directions via YJ
rest, repeat 2 times
Dolphin
Plank on forearms
Dolphin
Dolphin Dives
Cobra
CP
Down dog
Mountain
Warrior 2, triangle
Repeat other side
Bridge (mini aka shoulders down)
rest, repeat 2 times
shavasana w mantra:
“I am forgiving. I am forgiven” spoken once.
shavasana meditation/release/ receptivity

Chant:
Om namah shivaya gurave
satchidananda murtaye
nishprapanchaya shantaya
niralambaya tejase
(I honor the essence of being, the auspicious one, the luminous teacher within and without, who assumes the forms of truth, consciousness, and bliss, is never absent, full of peace, ultimately free and sparkles with a divine luster.)

The result:
Heart open and cleansed. A stronger core. A present mind with deeper insight and determination, yet the added bonus of flexibility. Thank you union of self, heart and mind!

Here’s a photo of me that I took in my studio-kitchen inspired by the #fmsphotoaday challenge. Today’s theme is Shapes, which made me think of asana shapes! I was in triangle, trikonasana.

Om Ma Durga Om

Appreciating Durga today.

The divine goddess of love and motherhood. She loves so fiercely that within her being is every “weapon” that spiritual warriors could posses. Her presence radiates beauty, confidence, acceptance, and strength… she has the loving awareness to witness all “evil, darkness, ego” gone astray with such divine power that the “evil, darkness, ego” wishes be released from itself. It simply offers itself to her to die under the swiftness of her sword.

At least, this is the way I understand her, taught to me by Dr. Manoj Chalam.

Karmic reweaving of mother/child-hood has been thick, in my sleeping and waking dreams the last few days. In this I experience prophetic dreams, symbolic messages, vibrational detoxes, and toddler-triggers galore!

Yesterday, my sweet toddler was pushing every button I had. I saw and felt my reactions and equally rose above said triggers and unconsciously reacted to them. When I reacted, I immediately felt what I was doing to my child, and to myself, by being angry. I communicated as best I could to him that I was reacting poorly and that I was sorry for my lack of patience.

In fleeting moments of silence, or in split seconds of post-trigger awareness, I would quickly pray. “Dear God, Great Spirit, please forgive me and guide me to be a better mother.”

I knew better than to believe I was a shitty parent and horrible mother. Sure, I felt that way, but I knew better than to let my heart attach itself to the sticky entrapment of misery presenting itself to me. Yet it took an unwavering commitment to say NO to it, every time.

Before going to sleep I was following through with a few logistical texts with our baby’s nanny, and friend in the spirit tribe in Boise. I let her know I was going to bed, and thus I did not see her replies until morning. Her last text to me, wished that I be filled with white light. Which she’d never said via text before.

It was sweet to read upon waking, as she didn’t know of the internal struggle I was challenged with and it was also supportive of the guidance that came to my dreams that night:

I was in a large stadium with people I knew and didn’t know. I found my 4 year old son there and he informed me that he was like his Dad and he has coyote medicine within him. Coyote is a shape shifter, and also a bit of a PLAYful instigator I believe. This gave me an “ah-ha” within my being and helped me understand why he is the way he is. Read: why I get triggered the way I do. 😉

I then was given an assignment to teach yoga in the stadium and I knew it had to be a heart-centric practice so that people could feel the loving acceptance I was feeling after my “ah-ha.” I was walking to where I would be teaching and I had an invisible presence next to me whispering that I create a perfect mantra for this experience. The presence felt masculine, and fatherly. He was helping me with my mantra as I would hope to help my son learn: patiently. As we walked the conversation went like this:

What would be best to start the mantra with?

….Om. Yes Om, the sound of creation.

Yes. That is good. And what shall follow it? What makes YOU feel loved?

Durga! Yes Durga should follow Om!

(Silent presence, knowing there’s a better answer.)

Oh wait, Ma! Ma Durga!

Very well! And let it finish with Om too. 🙂

Om Ma Durga Om!

I felt love and loved, and full of joy! The feeling increased every time I repeated it and I also felt so happy to have created just the right mantra to use in the waking dream to give me power on my path. I awoke shortly after.

I have a feeling that it was either one of my most relied upon teachers Babaji, or very likely Maharaj-ji visiting me in my dreams. I have been reading Maharaj-ji influences a lot lately through Ram Dass’ book Be Love Now for a book club I recently put in motion.

Shadow work, ie Karmic reweaving, is powerful when you arm yourself with awareness. I am thankful for the love of Durga and that of the True Christ that resides in my heart. I am thankful that my soul is armed in the soft, white feathers of owl and can wisely navigate within darkness. I am happy to have love in my home plus circles upon circles of divine beauty and embodiment in friendships in my city.

We should all be so lucky.